Monday, September 14, 2009

2nd e-letter for Sophie

Thursday, 11 June 2009


Dear my little princess Sophie,

Today has been 5 days since I left you with daddy and granny. I am so much in good health yet still thinking of you everyday. Considerable undoubtedly, I think I can’t live without you two, you my darling and your daddy. Indeed I couldn’t think, I couldn’t breathe and hardly can eat, even the foods were not as delightful as in on shore, you can’t even tell. It has given me such unpleasant feeling whatever I should do made me more suffer of leaving you at home. I am terribly sorry. I am still thinking. Am I a bad mother, the cruelest ever in this world? What on earth can a mother could ever abandon her child for quite sometime when she needed her most? I sworn to myself, if anything bad happen to you, I would pin myself down for whatever reason, I shall have not be forgiven.

My darling,

Every time I was in my cabin made me cold and boring, discouraged me myself from being motivate to do my job. These feeling inside has been ruled me, instead of being independent I am now inadequate. What I worried most is you, have you eaten enough foods, have you had enough sleep, have you ever miss me? I am so deeply thought about it and made me anxious. First thing in the morning I must go to the phone and called your dad of asking about you. How have you been doing without me, which your dad mentioned you’re progressively adapting your routine without me. What should I say this? I was relieved when after gave some hard time to your dad and granny, at least you have had been strong and independent. But after sometime I was thinking that have you had forgotten me already? I know this is the ruthless thought but I can’t help it. Because you know how much I love and I miss you as much as I do for your dad. You both are my life, my home and my destiny. Without you both I am nothing and worthless.

My sweetheart,

There is no intention for me to left you alone but the condition of my job has made me do this, very impossible to just ignore it. I wont be long, as soon as this operation completed, I’ll be home in no time. I would be chasing the flight ticket to get home and be with you and your dad, hope you’ll be waiting for me then. In the meanwhile, I just want you to know that I miss you so much. I love you.

Lots of love for you and your daddy

MOMMY

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