1st Blog in 2010

Hi.. i know it's quite late to wish u all a Happy New Year.. but Happy New Year.. and may all our wishes/resolution will come true. I have had this copy of Sophie's blogs writing in my Mac, which I recalled it was from last year, so as usual I will put on the 'flashback' version first before i'll be back on track.

Sophie was in shape better than before eventho I was a terrible mom who has been so selfish not to giving her breastfeeding as before. We giving her Pediasure which costs her daddy around RM350 a month. Hmm... I know it sounds so much expensive but how would you give your children a rare or just a random formula as if you are not capable to give more? My husband and I would always feel guilty when actually the fact are we eat or eaten very spacious meal, but we were thinking twice to give the best to our children.. how the hell you have the heart to do that? hhahaha.. anyways, some parents would not agree with me, but i know most parents does.. lot of frens actually very fond on giving the best meal to their children aint I right?

Sophie and Pediasure are both demanding i would say.. hehe.. luckily she doesn't gave us hard time to make her get used with formula. My hubby said, the vessel trip is actually 'blessed in disguise'. Hmmm.. i don't know.. i must say it is idyllic but i'm still regret that i couldn't give her a full breastfeeding till she is 2. Sob..sob..sob..

Well, everything was alright and i really loved the way she acted now.. she was becoming more towards as girlish as i imagined before.. there was a lot of stories..which it would be in my mind forever. She is one of my soul anyway.. ;)

18 month-old - her luvly bedroom

that wall decal, i've sticked it by myself.. bought it online :).. 

we've got most of the furniture from IKEA.. obviously huh??

AUSSINO Disney Princess bedsheet and quilt cover

i told you before that Sophie already been sleeping in her room by herself.. and we've decorated it since then. She totally love it, and i could tell you how much i love to design her room, as it was my room.. as if i were her.. i want this..that.. in my room.. hehehe.. i know it's unfair.. when she's big enuf to demand how to deco her own room.. that time i should let her do it.. i think.. hehehehe

Still the activities..

So we went to TGV Sunway Piramid for her first movie outing, Ice Age 3. i was planning it with her cousins, Along & Co and Angah & Co, also her aunt, Noi and uncle Boy were joined together. I was certainly afraid that she won't ever stand to watch it for a long time yet she was fantastic. She was behave, stayed for the whole movie, focus and also laughing when we had, she's totally unbelievable. I was relieved that she could made it till the end... i was glad.. you're amazing Sophie Camilla Arianna M Yusnizam.. :).. xoxo 

Sophie wants to eat by herself.. mcm pandai jer ek??

So cute right?? messy but cute

With her cousins... end of gathering

17 months activities

Sophie was playing with her LeapFrog table.. and dragged it to.... (note the gate installed by Hubby - it costs almost 1k yeah.. nothing cheap for a safety huh?)

the dining hall...hmmm.. 

She was independently knows how to brush her teeth.. she's got 8!!

I know it’s been awhile.. life is so complicated yet amazing. The last post I’ve written was the so called letter to Sophie during my offshore training. Sophie is now 22 months and there are lots of story I wanna tell you. I will keep it short. I promise.. such little thing was big for me so I won’t miss any moment which given by God because I know we are such a blessed parents to have her. Every parents would proud of their children, ain’t I right? So let me start with...

17 month-old Sophie

After the incident of we being apart for 2 weeks, Sophie was very attached to me and even couldn’t bare to see me passed by because she will asked me to hold her…every minute. However with the greatest effort of her daddy, she was very independent during nighttime as she can sleep by herself in her lovely room. Yup.. amazing right? In fact, she always knows when I told her its time to go to sleep, and there she was.. she went to her room and dragged her pillow together and.. lied down.. and sleep. Sometimes, yes, she wanted me to be there, just for awhile until she slept. Most of the time she was very easy to get her to bed, but like other children, sometimes she would give us a hard time to make her go to bed. Well..well..well… I bet most parents face it explicitly challenging.. that’s what we are.. to be challenged.. like a test for us to be a good parents.

That’s the good part, and the worst part was I have had almost stop breast pumping that time. After I went back from offshore, the breastmilk hasn’t produced as it did before, because no stimulation since I was on board. So Sophie was completely couldn’t get enough of milk. So then we started gave him the Pediasure to make sure she gets enough milk. I felt utterly useless, as a mom..i thot I could give her fully breastmilk till she’s 2, at least..

I tried, I beast pumped during my training, I even didn’t stop pumping until the last day onboard.. I’ve bought milkmaid tea to stimulate and to increase the milk, but I was failed. I was sad.. totally.. until now, I would say.. I envy to some people I know who still made it in fact a fully breastfed until their children are 2.. ooo.. I’m sorry dear.. I really wish I could give you more than now…

But there are still some, I tried pumped it, and it was not even 1 oz, but Sophie still not stopping from breastfeed. She’s also can manage to drink the formula if she wants it.. honestly, she’s almost depends on formula right now, almost 98.5%...i told ya.. that’s really the worst part..

What a moment!!!

June 20th 2009

Leaving on the jet plane… hahaha.. Yes finally!!!.. I was on the flight after 2-week will-not-tell-you-how-terrible-it-was experience while I was in offshore training. The journey was quite fun, after a few attempt to go back which has been canceled for 4 times, we at last settled on the chopper landing test. I was not telling Hubby till I was on the airport waited to depart. Of course he was surprised, but I could tell how happy he was (he better to! Hahaha). Sophie? It would be nice if I had the chance to talk to her and tell her I was on my way to see her.

I was quite nervous to see them tho. I wished I could tell you how much I missed them yet I couldn’t wait to hug and kiss them both. Hubby came with Noi to pick me up in KL Sentral and Sophie waited for me in her grandma’s house.

We can just leave the romantic scene between me n Hubby, not that interesting I know…hehehe.. I bet it would be as the same as some couple with the long distance relationship, when they’ve been apart for quite some time. Now now.. I wanna focus on Sophie.. How was she reacted when she saw me after 2 weeks we’ve been apart.

I was rushing to take the elevator to my mom’s and Hubby was still looking for the parking. Too enthusiastic to see my only princess, I was climbing the stair instead taking the elevator since it was too slow. I didn’t know where on earth I’ve got the energy, but I didn’t realize I was already in my mom’s in less than 3 mins. When I was there, Sophie just stepped out to the corridor and she was surprised at first looking at me yet she ran towards me and hugged me. i couldn’t tell you how I couldn’t stop shed my tears on her, she’s looking at me and hold me tight. Then she looked mope and I know she’s sulking. That time.. she won’t let me go..not even to the toilet.. Perhaps, she still worried that I may leave her again.. uhuhuhuhu…

Now I desperately positively missing you

June 17th 2009

I dun really know what to say. Everytime I called ur dad.. I felt like i can't breath. Seriously it was kinda stucked in my throat, my dear. We actually could go back by the 10th day of the operation, but there were some miscommunication between us and the people in SKO. We were hoping we could go back at that time, we had already change the flight tickets, that day just wasn't happen as I hoped..

I'm sorry sweetheart, i've done as best as I could. I even couldn't stand and yelled to the people in SKO just because they didn't manage to handle the boat and chopper arrangement, which we had missed that day.. Urgh.. I'm so much in stress right now.. I wished u and ur daddy were here.. Uhuhu

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