FINAL TRIMESTER ;)

For whatever reason, i jz wanna say sorry to my little one for not updating any of her journey till now. Now, i am already 7 months and 1 weeks. We have an appointment tomorrow. Lots of thing happened while my 2nd trimester. We had this so called short maternity and parenting class. Gorgeous Mum by CSI (eventho we aren't interested with cord blood banking but the event was quite worthy). Yup! if you ask me, we are not interested with this cord blood banking. One of the reason is they are still in research and need to improvise. My gynae also not recommended the plan. Well, i'm quite sure there is a reason why he also not recommend it. Plus, all the companies involved with this cord blood banking research is not established by any hospital (if i'm not mistaken).

During this Gorgeous Mum, we also learnt about yoga during pregnancy and after birth. It was fun! Then, we had this talk - Sex during pregnancy and that was the time my hubby so excited and focused on the subject... hehehe...

My morning sickness was tolerant and become lesser till my 7 month pregnancy. I feel more relax. But, day by day, she/he become more active. Sumtime i dun even know what she's has done in my belly. I could feel it an could touch it. When there was the time she/he kicked at the down of my belly, i was so desperately had to go to the toilet no matter what. Well, i think most of the time she's doing acrobatic or summersault... hahahaha... Good for you dear...

O ya! We already bought some of the stuffs for our baby. Will tell ya later k! Daaa...

Baby... I really am sorry..

I'm sorry
I guess I never loved you quite as well as the way you loved me
I guess I'll never really be able to tell you how sorry
I am

And I don't know what it is about you
I just know it's not what it was
I don't know why red fades before blue it just does
and I don't know what it is about me
that I just can't keep still
I keep thinking someday
I will make this all up to you
and maybe someday I will

I guess I never loved you quite as well
as the way you loved me
I guess I'll never really be able to tell you
how sorry
I am
sorry I am
sorry I am
sorry I am

*Ani Difranco*

My little ones is 22 weeks now. I know he/she can senses me now, more sensitive and will hears me now. I hope my little ones will understand how exactly i feel, not having much time for her talk to her as much as before was really hurting me... Sorry my dear, i never meant for that to happen. I really am. Promise will spend more time with you after this. InsyaAllah.

*u know how much i love you*

Mama and Baby Genius!

Lately, I’ve been so busy with my project (so not me!) where I think I’ve got headache everyday. The seismic data isn’t obvious as I thot, and it is quite tough as my previous project. Moreover, we’ve been introduce to the new software called it Geoprobe, so, it is hard to interpret when u are still learning the software. I know some people in Development already had used this since forever, hik!, but not us in Exploration. So, kesimpulannya, memang terkapai-kapai la nk buat kejer tu.. Honestly, these two weeks has been really tough for me.

Just now, I was struggling with that project, when I did not know which horizon I had to pick up, intentionally for the correlation. The correlated horizon seems not right to me, then, I’ve made a reference with Ieja, my colleague. We tried to figure it out how to do the polygon correlation as in Seiswork before. Yup, that time I was so sure that I am better do it n Seiswork rather than in this software even it is new with advance technology. Ieja told me she forgot how to do it and Zul didn’t even know that thing is exist. I’ve been trying lots of thing (try and error la ni!). Suddenly it came out of nowhere.. I had the idea to do it and TAAARAAA!!! The polygon correlation has appeared!! I was surprised… aper lagi.. dengan bangganya I told Zul and Ieja that I knw how to do it. They came to my workstation and WALLLAAA!!! Dengan hidung kembang I was singing.. “my baby is a genius.. my baby is a genius”… they were jz laughing at me.. and I’ve said to Wongey who is sit next to me, “See I told ya! My baby will be a brilliant and successful geoscientist.. hehehe”…

My baby is fine. Alhamdulillah… last week, we’ve been to PMC for the 3rd prenatal visit. I’ve told my gynae about the problem I had lately where I was experiencing this sort of period pain at my left side of my womb. My hubby and I were worried about the baby actually… Dr. Idris asked me whether I have constipation or not. Yup… I’ve been terribly constipated in the last few weeks. So, that was the reason. He asked me to eat more fiber foods, fruits and vegetables… Then, one thing I was waiting for, looked at at our baby on the screen. Baby wasn’t moving as before as last time we checked. Maybe baby was sleeping… we could see our baby’s nose, eyes and fingers and toes have developed. Our baby is beautiful…

My pregnant belly is not yet showing but lots of my cloths couldn’t fit any longer. The tightness is around waist and bust. My mom already bought me one pregnancy cloth when she’s been to Jakarta. It’s lovely. I bought one too in Modernmum, together with shoes and pants. Jz have to wait for the right time to wear it. Now, its too early ja!!

WEEK 13 : End of My 1st Trimester

Alhamdulillah.. i would say everything seems okay tho lots of things made me sick sometime.. last week i had flu n fever. Quite scary actually.. i dun want to hurt my baby but i couldn't help myself to eat all those fruits - durian, rambutan, pulasan.. my favs okay! so maner bleh tahan. Plus, my brother in law sanggup balik Taiping to get his durian Taiping because of me yg cravings nih. Hence, when he jz arrived, we all balun puas2. I did not eat a lot. jz about 5 ulas jer... I think Hubby makan lagi banyaks.. like he was the one yg cravings. Hehehe..

After a few days, I couldn't breath normally, I had flu. Office works made me tense additional to my other tasks, where I had to finish my intepretation of Mega Merge Project by this August. So, my body temperature was getting high. Some say, we cant be so much in stressful mode.. pregnancy is much more than that.. we are too fragile. I was scared. I wanted to see my gynae but i know we will waste our time in waiting in line. So, I've decided to take Panadol Soluble since I did remember my gynae once told me that Panadol is fine with us.

Poor Hubby.. I knew he worried about me n our baby. Well, I'm pretty sure our baby is fine in here... I'm getting better now. Now, the first trimester has ended and I am starting with my 2nd trimester, a crucial and possibly tough period i think. They said more relaxed phase begins in this trimester, but, I am not sure about that. The symptoms still on. Vomitting, nausea and heartburn often occured until now. I jz hope its slowly vanished soon..hahaha..

And this moment I comfortably share the great news of the pregnancy with colleagues and friends. Since most miscarriages occur in the first trimester, I believed many people feel more secure in announcing the pregnancy in the second trimester kan? But, kat my ofc da mmg da kecoh da... so, i can do nothing la..

From the book, it tell us that even though it will take quite some time before they come out, all 20 teeth have now been formed! The baby’s pancreas has also started to produce insulin. The intestines are migrating from the umbilical cord into her of his tummy. The baby weighs about 28 to 30 grams now; the placenta now weighs about the same. The baby size is around 3/4 inches.

Honestly, I can't wait to see my gynae soon because I wanna see our baby yang comel tu.. nak tgk dia gerak2 tak mcm da first we saw our baby moved. Hihihi... really really can't wait...

Amazing!

13 July 2007

Can you see that? That’s our baby – 10 weeks and 3 days. Well it’s becoming the last month of my first trimester, 2 weeks more to go. But I would say the symptoms still be going under my expectations. Sometimes I felt like ok but sometime I jz need time to have a good rest. The symptoms still going strong as usual as it will never stop. I don’t know and I’m not sure when it’s going to be ended. From the book that I’ve been reading, the symptoms may stop after the first trimester or may be not. I am still suffering from nauseas and vomiting thingy. However everything is not matter to me as soon as I saw our baby on the monitor… hik! And thanks to dearest Hubby yang sabar jer dgn my pregnancy thingy ni... hehehe... Love you..

We’ve changed our gynae. After we were listening to many people about our gynae, Datuk Dr. Nora, the rumors haunted me. God! I jz want to be normal, deliver as normal as my mom, my sisters… so that I can feel the pain while delivering the baby like our mom did. The rumors about Dr. Nora always wanted her patients do caesarean made me scared. After discussed with Hubby, we’ve decided to see another gynae in PMC – Dr. Idris. Even he doesn’t have ‘Datuk’ title but we believed in him and it was recommended by my Angah. Angah told me everything about him. He is a good gynae, very soft spoken, knowledgeable, friendly and most important thing he isn’t busy as Dr. Nora.

So, last Friday we went to see him. Yes, he is like our father. Old… fatherly… soft spoken and he told us everything about pregnancy provided us do not know anything about it. When he was checking me, he explained everything what is inside there. The size of uterus, the vagina, etc and there was… our little one. Oh my God! Our baby was moving, the legs, the hands and even the head. Its like our baby wanted to say something.. may be…”Mama..papa… I’m here..!!” I was like so happy, I jz wanted to cry but I know it sounds embarrassing to cry in front of gynae. But, I tell you what; I bet every mother in this world will feel like I felt that time. How incredible and fantastic the creation of God. SubhanAllah...

According to Dr. Idris, the size of our baby is jz fine and he/she still developing. Our baby is a fetus now. From the book, the baby is about the size of an apple. The head, the eyes, the legs and the hands have developed. Inside the fetus mouth, taste buds have developed and one day become baby teeth have formed. Baby is making urine now, and that’s why I have to go to bathroom frequently rather than usual.

Now, we jz can’t wait. Can’t wait to see Dr. Idris again. We couldn’t forget the visual of our baby… when he/she moved… really… really made us smile. .. :) Sooooo cooomeeelll!

been a while

i've been meaning to write in this blog tapi tak sempat because we were busy moving in our stuff into new house, and also some other things i have to take care of at work . azah is doing fine it seems though the pregnancy symptoms still ader...all-day-sickness..hehehe...not just morning sickness...lepas tu fatigue...n takde mood...i feel like at times she seems to 'dislike' me being around...cam nyampah jer...hehehe...normal kot perempuan mengandung cam ni

maybe after this first trimester things will get better insya Allah...sian pun ader ...termuntah-muntah tu kalu tak sakit perut takper...and her constant stomach muscle cramps...i used to think that berkhatan is the most painful experience in the world

we're thinking of changing the gynae to another doctor...haven't shortlisted anybody yet...medical center pun maybe nak tukar...heard some cerita yang tak sedap didengar about current gynae...but yeah, there are other fishes in the sea...let's find out who's better suited for the job

i've been reading the 'what to expect when you are expecting' pregnancy guide book and i must tell you it does a lot at helping a clueless chap like me understand about the whole thing of pregnancy than just the basic concept of how a baby is conceived...hahaha...and we've been watching the 'in the womb' documentary on national geographic just so to appreciate every bit of pregnancy and what it means to us...it sure does mean a lot, and everything...love, life, and all...and i know the road to happiness doesn't end here...there's still long way to go and with a baby on its way, i just have to learn to put myself last...hehehe...boleh ker..?

everyday i ask azah when's the baby coming out? not just because i can't wait to meet the baby , but it's because i can't stand seeing her going through all the pain...i can understand why mothers are brokenhearted when their children never seem to appreciate the pain they have to go through bringing them into this world...it is so much pain i am apalled to know that children today think they don't owe their mothers anything right out of the amnion sack. don't they know they owe them (the mothers) 'life'.life was at a certain point, at stake.

apa la aku membebel ni but then, i'm just relieved to know that my wife is doing okay. tak ok takper i'll be around to take of her. even when she's so menyampah to see me,i'll be there. hehehe.

It's Unbelievable

June 16th, 2007

Our first appointment with O&G. We’ve chosen Datuk Dr. Nor Asyikin in Pantai Medical Centre Bangsar. I wasn’t feeling well that day. Plus I didn’t have a chance to grab any food for breakfast. Nampak muka my Hubby risau. While waiting for our names called, he’s out looking for some foods. Yup, he helped me a lot. His understanding of all the symptoms, made me proud of him. I love you darling. Thank you for being such a greatest partner. Layan semua kerenah I yang quite mengada-ngada ni… I could see how tired he was than me yg pregnant nih. Heehehe…

After the nurse checked my bodyweight, height and blood pressure, finally we met Dr. Nora. She looked lovely and OMG! She is so pretty. We’ve been talking about the entire problem I had and might be having soon. It was fast actually. The last part was the screening test(ultrasounds exam). You know, I did not how to describe the feelings when we first saw our baby. I felt I wanna cry… how wonderful the creation of Allah.

Our baby now is about 6mm long. Dr. Nora pointed at the heart, and she said that we could hear our baby’s heartbeat. I was surprised. I thot the heartbeat would be heard after 10 to 12 weeks then. But, with all the new technology, we could hear it by now. She turned on the volume… and that’s it. Our baby’s heartbeat. Oh… that was the time that I was so relieved and blissful. Thank you God… for this wonderful gift.

Now I Know....

June 14th, 2007

God! I have all those "joys" of pregancy's symptoms. Just have vomited in ladies and kantoi with Kak Far. She was smiling at me as if she knows everything. Aaaa…my morning sickness is started. I’m tired.. I’m sick of it.. I’m tired of this fatigue thingy and vomit thingy. But, the truly is, it’s not that I’m sick of this pregnancy. I love it. I love the fact that I am going to be a mom and my Hubby to be a dad. Its jz… why does some people did not like me who has to go to ladies all the time during this first trimester.

Chit chat with Kak Chit yesterday, she said she had gone through well during her first trimester. Same as Tinie. But not me. I could feel like extremely exhausted, fatigue and sometime I’ll lost my appetite and clearly in mind I dun really want to eat this and that. I would have ignored those feelings since I have gastric. So like it or not, I have to eat. When my Hubby asked me what would you like to eat? I would say… I dun know. There’s nothing in my mind. Yeah.. I’m confused. When people say, pregnant ladies will have all those weird cravings. Luckily I’m not. Some people said, it’s not yet started. 5 weeks and 4 days.. hmmm.. still long way to go…

To be pregnant woman is a wonderful feelings. Once you know that you're pregnant u can't tell how happy you are. Speechless... hmmmm...

first post from papa-to-be

words just won't say it clearly how it feels right now. the feelings are just, indescribable. i am so blessed.amen amen amen.

Am I Really?????

June 11th, 2007

Late for about 6 days to be exact. I hated those feelings. They said waiting to miss your period is your official excursion to Pregnancy Limbo Land. I can’t wait to know the truth. Am I pregnant? Or it’s jz late because of the hormones swinging back n forth as I’m too eager to be a mom? It was funny to know that we jz got married for about… not even 1 month! But, I still have these feeling. Can’t wait to get pregnant. Can’t wait to be a mom. Now i know why some of my frens felt that.

We’ve decided to go to TTMC. No more second test by me. I couldn’t face the fact if I’m not yet pregnant. Pathetic huh? Heheehe… well, not me. Blame the hormones. Because I’m pretty sure that I’m pregnant with all the symptoms I have. I feel the swollen, dizziness and extremely fatigue right now.

The suspense was killing me. I’m not sure about my Hubby. Doctor asked me to do the pregnancy test but I had to relax. She said, sometime when we’re too eager to have baby, the hormone would be affected. Also, as we had to count on our hCG (human Chorionic Gonadotropin) hormone in our urine. The rise of hCG can be vary from person to person, so the result are less than accurate. So, she advised me not put on high hope.

As I did the test, I wasn’t relaxed at all while waiting for the result. I knew this got to be what I wanted. I would tell my Hubby that I wanted this, but I won’t let him disappointed again.

When the time we had to see the Doctor again, I saw she smiled. “Congratulations…! The test is positive. You’re pregnant.” We were smiled and couldn’t stop smiling. Alhamdulillah... We both happy. Happy to know that we are going to be a parent soon. Too fast huh.. Blame my Hubby then.. hihihihi…

See.. I told ya! I’m pregnant!...;)

First Test

June 1st, 2007

Wrong assumption. I thot we have to count exactly 28 days of our period cycle. I calculated wrongly. I thot i was late for 2 days... So, we bought the test kit and I did the test yesterday afternoon. It turned out negative. Hmmm... I told my hubby and he said that was ok. I felt the disappointment. I wanted this happen. Then i consultd with nana regarding this matter. She said i supposed to test it early in the morning because of this and that...bla..bla.. i dun really understand that. The best part was, there is possibility to get those two lines next time if... u know...

I was convinced it would be positive, because I can feel it. The way I feel is different. I dunno. Anyway, we still have to wait for the perfect and exact date. Next week perhaps? Sighsss...