Sophie - 10 Feb 2008

10 Feb - while kept awaiting for my contractions begun, we watched some movies to overcome my nervousness. Gynae came, he said, still.. no progression.

Dr. Idris decided to get me induced and break my amnion sac. After about an hour, the staff nurse came and checked my dilation. progressed about 1 cm. Kept waiting till contractions are coming at relatively regular intervals but the contractions tend to be mild. When the dilation about 6 cm, the contraction became longer and stronger. At 1st, i still can tahan, and after 1 hour, i've decided to get the sedative injection. Staff nurse was asking me if i wanted either the injection or epidural. I think she might be thinking that a woman like me couldn't stand the pain. I rather not... i think i wont need it since my mom n my sisters could do it. So do i...

About 2.30pm, my contraction getting worst. till 3.00 pm, i knw she is ready... whilst i was in pain, my hubby turn on the Quran on my Macbook and SubhanAllah... my labour wasn't that bad at all. My labour went well, not as i imagined before. No one could tell you what were the experiences you will face during labour. But, I would say it's amazing. It won't bother me as i am jz worried about my baby. With my hubby by my side, everything seems easy to me.

4.15 pm - Natural birth by forceps... Sophie Camilla Arianna... welcome to the world honey..

Tick! Tick!

I am in Labour Ward, Pantai Med Ctr, Bangsar. We are still waiting for our little ones. Gynae said i have only few cm dilated, yet not enuf with the contractions happened. 

Dear my little ones,

Mama and papa will be waiting for you... when you are ready, my precious princess. 

FINAL TRIMESTER ;)

For whatever reason, i jz wanna say sorry to my little one for not updating any of her journey till now. Now, i am already 7 months and 1 weeks. We have an appointment tomorrow. Lots of thing happened while my 2nd trimester. We had this so called short maternity and parenting class. Gorgeous Mum by CSI (eventho we aren't interested with cord blood banking but the event was quite worthy). Yup! if you ask me, we are not interested with this cord blood banking. One of the reason is they are still in research and need to improvise. My gynae also not recommended the plan. Well, i'm quite sure there is a reason why he also not recommend it. Plus, all the companies involved with this cord blood banking research is not established by any hospital (if i'm not mistaken).

During this Gorgeous Mum, we also learnt about yoga during pregnancy and after birth. It was fun! Then, we had this talk - Sex during pregnancy and that was the time my hubby so excited and focused on the subject... hehehe...

My morning sickness was tolerant and become lesser till my 7 month pregnancy. I feel more relax. But, day by day, she/he become more active. Sumtime i dun even know what she's has done in my belly. I could feel it an could touch it. When there was the time she/he kicked at the down of my belly, i was so desperately had to go to the toilet no matter what. Well, i think most of the time she's doing acrobatic or summersault... hahahaha... Good for you dear...

O ya! We already bought some of the stuffs for our baby. Will tell ya later k! Daaa...

Baby... I really am sorry..

I'm sorry
I guess I never loved you quite as well as the way you loved me
I guess I'll never really be able to tell you how sorry
I am

And I don't know what it is about you
I just know it's not what it was
I don't know why red fades before blue it just does
and I don't know what it is about me
that I just can't keep still
I keep thinking someday
I will make this all up to you
and maybe someday I will

I guess I never loved you quite as well
as the way you loved me
I guess I'll never really be able to tell you
how sorry
I am
sorry I am
sorry I am
sorry I am

*Ani Difranco*

My little ones is 22 weeks now. I know he/she can senses me now, more sensitive and will hears me now. I hope my little ones will understand how exactly i feel, not having much time for her talk to her as much as before was really hurting me... Sorry my dear, i never meant for that to happen. I really am. Promise will spend more time with you after this. InsyaAllah.

*u know how much i love you*

Mama and Baby Genius!

Lately, I’ve been so busy with my project (so not me!) where I think I’ve got headache everyday. The seismic data isn’t obvious as I thot, and it is quite tough as my previous project. Moreover, we’ve been introduce to the new software called it Geoprobe, so, it is hard to interpret when u are still learning the software. I know some people in Development already had used this since forever, hik!, but not us in Exploration. So, kesimpulannya, memang terkapai-kapai la nk buat kejer tu.. Honestly, these two weeks has been really tough for me.

Just now, I was struggling with that project, when I did not know which horizon I had to pick up, intentionally for the correlation. The correlated horizon seems not right to me, then, I’ve made a reference with Ieja, my colleague. We tried to figure it out how to do the polygon correlation as in Seiswork before. Yup, that time I was so sure that I am better do it n Seiswork rather than in this software even it is new with advance technology. Ieja told me she forgot how to do it and Zul didn’t even know that thing is exist. I’ve been trying lots of thing (try and error la ni!). Suddenly it came out of nowhere.. I had the idea to do it and TAAARAAA!!! The polygon correlation has appeared!! I was surprised… aper lagi.. dengan bangganya I told Zul and Ieja that I knw how to do it. They came to my workstation and WALLLAAA!!! Dengan hidung kembang I was singing.. “my baby is a genius.. my baby is a genius”… they were jz laughing at me.. and I’ve said to Wongey who is sit next to me, “See I told ya! My baby will be a brilliant and successful geoscientist.. hehehe”…

My baby is fine. Alhamdulillah… last week, we’ve been to PMC for the 3rd prenatal visit. I’ve told my gynae about the problem I had lately where I was experiencing this sort of period pain at my left side of my womb. My hubby and I were worried about the baby actually… Dr. Idris asked me whether I have constipation or not. Yup… I’ve been terribly constipated in the last few weeks. So, that was the reason. He asked me to eat more fiber foods, fruits and vegetables… Then, one thing I was waiting for, looked at at our baby on the screen. Baby wasn’t moving as before as last time we checked. Maybe baby was sleeping… we could see our baby’s nose, eyes and fingers and toes have developed. Our baby is beautiful…

My pregnant belly is not yet showing but lots of my cloths couldn’t fit any longer. The tightness is around waist and bust. My mom already bought me one pregnancy cloth when she’s been to Jakarta. It’s lovely. I bought one too in Modernmum, together with shoes and pants. Jz have to wait for the right time to wear it. Now, its too early ja!!

WEEK 13 : End of My 1st Trimester

Alhamdulillah.. i would say everything seems okay tho lots of things made me sick sometime.. last week i had flu n fever. Quite scary actually.. i dun want to hurt my baby but i couldn't help myself to eat all those fruits - durian, rambutan, pulasan.. my favs okay! so maner bleh tahan. Plus, my brother in law sanggup balik Taiping to get his durian Taiping because of me yg cravings nih. Hence, when he jz arrived, we all balun puas2. I did not eat a lot. jz about 5 ulas jer... I think Hubby makan lagi banyaks.. like he was the one yg cravings. Hehehe..

After a few days, I couldn't breath normally, I had flu. Office works made me tense additional to my other tasks, where I had to finish my intepretation of Mega Merge Project by this August. So, my body temperature was getting high. Some say, we cant be so much in stressful mode.. pregnancy is much more than that.. we are too fragile. I was scared. I wanted to see my gynae but i know we will waste our time in waiting in line. So, I've decided to take Panadol Soluble since I did remember my gynae once told me that Panadol is fine with us.

Poor Hubby.. I knew he worried about me n our baby. Well, I'm pretty sure our baby is fine in here... I'm getting better now. Now, the first trimester has ended and I am starting with my 2nd trimester, a crucial and possibly tough period i think. They said more relaxed phase begins in this trimester, but, I am not sure about that. The symptoms still on. Vomitting, nausea and heartburn often occured until now. I jz hope its slowly vanished soon..hahaha..

And this moment I comfortably share the great news of the pregnancy with colleagues and friends. Since most miscarriages occur in the first trimester, I believed many people feel more secure in announcing the pregnancy in the second trimester kan? But, kat my ofc da mmg da kecoh da... so, i can do nothing la..

From the book, it tell us that even though it will take quite some time before they come out, all 20 teeth have now been formed! The baby’s pancreas has also started to produce insulin. The intestines are migrating from the umbilical cord into her of his tummy. The baby weighs about 28 to 30 grams now; the placenta now weighs about the same. The baby size is around 3/4 inches.

Honestly, I can't wait to see my gynae soon because I wanna see our baby yang comel tu.. nak tgk dia gerak2 tak mcm da first we saw our baby moved. Hihihi... really really can't wait...

Amazing!

13 July 2007

Can you see that? That’s our baby – 10 weeks and 3 days. Well it’s becoming the last month of my first trimester, 2 weeks more to go. But I would say the symptoms still be going under my expectations. Sometimes I felt like ok but sometime I jz need time to have a good rest. The symptoms still going strong as usual as it will never stop. I don’t know and I’m not sure when it’s going to be ended. From the book that I’ve been reading, the symptoms may stop after the first trimester or may be not. I am still suffering from nauseas and vomiting thingy. However everything is not matter to me as soon as I saw our baby on the monitor… hik! And thanks to dearest Hubby yang sabar jer dgn my pregnancy thingy ni... hehehe... Love you..

We’ve changed our gynae. After we were listening to many people about our gynae, Datuk Dr. Nora, the rumors haunted me. God! I jz want to be normal, deliver as normal as my mom, my sisters… so that I can feel the pain while delivering the baby like our mom did. The rumors about Dr. Nora always wanted her patients do caesarean made me scared. After discussed with Hubby, we’ve decided to see another gynae in PMC – Dr. Idris. Even he doesn’t have ‘Datuk’ title but we believed in him and it was recommended by my Angah. Angah told me everything about him. He is a good gynae, very soft spoken, knowledgeable, friendly and most important thing he isn’t busy as Dr. Nora.

So, last Friday we went to see him. Yes, he is like our father. Old… fatherly… soft spoken and he told us everything about pregnancy provided us do not know anything about it. When he was checking me, he explained everything what is inside there. The size of uterus, the vagina, etc and there was… our little one. Oh my God! Our baby was moving, the legs, the hands and even the head. Its like our baby wanted to say something.. may be…”Mama..papa… I’m here..!!” I was like so happy, I jz wanted to cry but I know it sounds embarrassing to cry in front of gynae. But, I tell you what; I bet every mother in this world will feel like I felt that time. How incredible and fantastic the creation of God. SubhanAllah...

According to Dr. Idris, the size of our baby is jz fine and he/she still developing. Our baby is a fetus now. From the book, the baby is about the size of an apple. The head, the eyes, the legs and the hands have developed. Inside the fetus mouth, taste buds have developed and one day become baby teeth have formed. Baby is making urine now, and that’s why I have to go to bathroom frequently rather than usual.

Now, we jz can’t wait. Can’t wait to see Dr. Idris again. We couldn’t forget the visual of our baby… when he/she moved… really… really made us smile. .. :) Sooooo cooomeeelll!